Summer

Where did this summer go? As I think back on my summer, it is hard to imagine that it is already mid August. This summer has been one of the more difficult summers of my life. Many of you probably know that I am working for Reformed University Fellowship as a Campus Intern. This means that I will be going to the University of Maryland to work with the new freshman girls. I will hang out with them and get to know them and be a friend for them. I am so very excited about doing this. The thing about this internship that makes it hard is the fact that I have to raise my support for it so I can get payed and have benefits and all that fun stuff. This is a very humbling experience for me. It is very hard to call people and meet with people and ask them to invest in you and an organization that you believe in. It is also a really awesome experience. It has been so amazing to see the way God has worked in my life and my supporters lives to raise the money I have so far. There is no way I would have been able to raise $21,000 apart from the grace of God. It is amazing that so many people can be so generous. Thank you God! I still have a ways to go before I can move to Maryland. $6500 to be exact. As the beginning of classes draws near, I am really starting to become anxious. Questions start surfacing: Am I going to raise this money? Am I suppose to be doing this? What is God trying to teach me through all this? Where is the rest of this money going to come from? It is one thing to say you trust God completely, but another thing to actually live that way and believe it. I know that I definitely struggle with trusting God. I say that I do, but I like being in control of my own life. It scares me not knowing what is going to happen, or knowing that I have no control over it. I am always looking for something that I am doing wrong or what I need to be doing better. In fundraising, there isn't necessarily a right or wrong way to do things. If people are going to give, they are going to give. If it is what God wants for you, then he can bless abundantly. All I can do is keep doing what I am doing and I will end up where God wants me to be when he wants me there. It may not be where I expected or the time I expected to get there. I am beginning to come to terms with that. In the mean time all I can do is be patient and enjoy this time I have at home with my family. Looking back on this summer I wouldn't change anything. I have had a great summer traveling and meeting new people.

Anyway that is all I have for now. Sorry for the length. Writing it all out helps me process my thoughts, so I also apologize if it is hard to follow. I feel like I need to put in a shameless plug now. If you or anyone you know would like to donate to a great campus ministry and hopefully a great campus intern please visit www.ruf.org/donate. Thank you all for your support and prayers! And thanks for reading!

Peace :-)

Trusting God

So a many of you may know, I am going to be an intern for Reformed University Fellowship (RUF) at the University of Maryland for the next two years. This is an incredibly scary yet incredibly exciting adventure! RUF played such a huge roll in my spiritual growth in college. The people in RUF were so welcoming and friendly. They really showed that they cared about me as a person. It was a great example of how the Gospel should be portrayed in our lives. It inspired me to become an intern and show the Gospel to other people. This is what brought me to Maryland. In an effort to keep everyone updated on this internship, I decided to start a blog. I'm not really sure what I will write about, but I suppose I will give it a go and see what happens.

I have been reading the book Trusting God this month for the internship, and I must say, it has really helped put things into perspective. So far everything about this internship has been about trusting God. Which coincidently is the thing I struggle with the most. I like to turn to God when big things are going on in my life, but not with the little things. I also have no problem thinking that God will take care of the problems in my friends' lives, but I don't want to bother him with my problems...as if he can't handle them. Which is completely ridiculous, because I believe in a God that is sovereign. I have to raise $36,000 dollars to do this internship, but God is in control of that. If I am meant to go to Maryland, then God has already raised that money for me, I just need to find it. Albeit that is the hard part. But if it is God's will that those people give, then they will.

I'm sorry if this post seems a little all over the place. Overall I'm really excited to see how God works this summer. I'm sure it is probably not going to work out the way I have it planned, but that is okay. Thanks for reading!